Confusion

I'm so confused. I don't know what to think anymore. I thought it was God's will for me to move in with Stephanie. Problems would crop up, but they would always go away. I was praying and Steph was praying... After my mom told me to go ahead and do what I needed to do, I thought for sure that it was God's will. I've already given notice to my landlord. I've already made up a schedule of moving/packing/cleaning for Pete's sake! GRRR! I'm so confused!

Mom called me today to renig (renege?)...kinda. She said that she needed me afterall. Apparently someone backed out of buying their (big) house and my parents are tired of dealing with it. They've decided today that they're going to move back into the (big) house and they need me to move into the other (small) house. Sigh. I'm so upset. Steph and I have already made plans. We had our hearts set on becoming roommates.

I really feel bad b/c I feel like we(mom and I) are jerking Steph around. "Yes, I'll move in. No, I can't. Yes, I'll move in. No, I can't." Ahhh! If I moved in with Steph, she'd benefit from my rent money. And she'd have a built in babysitter/dogsitter/housestitter. And, of course, I'd benefit from the cheaper rent. Knowing this, my parents have decided that I won't have to pay rent AT ALL if I move into the small house. Mom said I'd only have to pay utilities/satellite/internet. Sigh. Why can't I be happy about this? It's a super cute house. I'll post pics if I move in...

I'm so freaking confused! What does God want?! I know we weren't meant to understand God completely. I know he knows whats best for me.

Blah, Blah, Blah...I'm just rambling incoherently now. I don't mean to be ungrateful. I'm blessed with the opportunity to live in a nice house rent free. Sigh.