Can't get it out of my head!

I can NOT stop singing songs from this album. I listen to it on the way to work, all day at work, on the way home from work, when I'm at home cleaning and right before I go to bed I watch one or two or ALL of their videos on my iPod.

Fa-REEK-ing HILARIOUS.


Buy it.

P.S. Just in case you don't know who The Lonely Island is (are?)... You DO know Andy Samberg, right? SNL? If you've seen SNL digital shorts, you've probably heard a few of these songs.

"A boom box can change the world. You've got to know your limits with a boom box. This was a cautionary tale. A BOOM BOX IS NOT A TOY!"

I feel this way...

I have so many dreams, but I am too lazy (or whatever you want to call it) to do the work to make those dreams come true. I wish I could change that.

Speaking of (a different kind of) dreams... I had that recurring dream again. This time I was changing lanes on a bridge. I was switching from the middle lane to the slow lane and my car just kept going. I drove right off of the bridge. I was somehow able to turn all the way around in my seat and watch myself fall...instead of seeing the water rushing at me, I saw the bridge get further and further away (in slow mo). Sam was with me and I pulled him tight into my arms. Then my car hit the water...only there was really no impact. Water rushed into the car. In the next part of the dream, I'm waking up at someone's house. I ask where my dog is and I'm told that Sam didn't make it. Not because of the crash, but because he had cancer. Injuries from the crash revealed the cancer. I was so devastated that I ran out of the house and burst into tears. I rammed my fists into my eyes to try to stop the flow of tears. After I cried myself out, I went to a bedroom and laid down. A man came in to check on me. I said, "I can still feel him laying behind me." (I usually lay on my side and Sam curles up behind my knees.) And then I woke up.

Holidays Schmolidays.

Thanksgiving was meh. Christmas was meh. New Years was fun. Yay! Birthday so far is meh.

Meh!

Haha! Sorry to be a downer, but that's just how I'm feeling these days.

Thanksgiving: Did I already blog about Thanksgiving? I think I did. So, just a refresher...Mom doesn't like to cook, so we went out to eat sushi on Thanksgiving eve and then on Thanksgiving day mom & I slept late while the boys and Dad went to Dad's parent's house. Later, we went to a movie. Four Christmases. Very funny! Overall, very disappointing Thanksgiving for me.

Christmas: Christmas eve I went to my parents house for munching and games. Logan got off work at 11:00 p.m., so we opened gifts a little after midnight. Then we all went our separate ways to sleep. On Christmas Day we reconviened and went to see The Day The Earth Stood Still. IT SUCKED BIG TIME! Overall, MEH.

New Years Eve: I was dog sitting last week, so I was in a fabulous house on NYE. I invited Rachael and Stephanie to come hang with me. My friend, Brian, also pooped in for a while. Rachael and I cooked chili and brownies and later when Steph and Brian showed up we played Scene It. After Brian left, we had a major "girl talk" session. FUN!

Birthday: Well, the fact that I'm now 32...that calls for a very loud "MEH"! But, I'm telling myself that I'm only 29, so...whatever. Birthday's now are really no biggie. My pal, Angie, decorated my desk and made me cupcakes and gave me cash. My other pal, Jenn, took me to lunch and to Starbucks. Woot! So, I'm very well fed and the extra cash allowed me to pay off my antique furniture! Yippee!! I am very excite! Tonight I'm stopping by my parent's house for some veggie soup and later my Rach is coming over to give me a prezzie. I have a sneaking suspicion that it is Forgetting Sarah Marshall. I freaking LOVE that movie! Overall, it's been a fabulous b-day. I'm only saying "meh" over the age part.

Merry Christmas from Sam! hehe

Nuther good one...

I promise I'm not going to turn this blog into a nightly "talk about my devotion" time. It's just right now I feel like I'm waking up from a deep sleep. I'm excited that God is talking to me again...or rather...I'm excited that I'm able to HEAR Him again. Anyhoo...just wanted to share this:

"You will show me the path of life; in Your presence is fullness of joy." Psalm 16:11

Your joy is not based on your circumstances. Happiness may be based on what is happening to you, but not joy. Joy - a fruit of the Spirit - is like a deep well on the inside of you. It is not the fruit of your circumstance. No matter what you are facing in life, you can have joy in the midst of it. - From JM's Ending Your Day Right

It's not like these are new words to me. I've been a Christian for a long time. I've heard these things over and over. But, what awes me is that God knows just when you need to really hear these things. If I'd read that passage, say, last month...it wouldn't mean as much as it does to me today. Today...I'm excited to remember that I can have joy even though I'm going through some real crap right now. Yay!

One more thing...

"Oh I get by with a little help from my friends. Mmmm I get high with a little help from my friends. Oh I'm gonna try with a little help from my friends." - The Beatles

hehe.

God's Peace. Like Calgon...only eleventy billion times better.

Things have been stressful lately. Work is so stressful that I'm working 10 hour days and having crying fits. My personal life...even worse. I've been freaking over some things this week. So bad that I've had to pull out the trusty old xanax just so I could calm down enough to sleep. This morning, I was so panicked that I could barely function. So, I prayed. "Please God. I need a miracle..."

On the way to work I thought, "Why do I keep doing this to myself?!" And by "this" I mean, separating myself from God. ABB, like you, I've been struggling with this. For three long years I've been moving further and further away. And for three long years, I've seen my life stagnate. I know what I need to do to make things right, but I'm lazy and I'm the queen of avoidance. Avoiding the physical (for lack of a better word) issues and the spiritual issues. Well, I avoid until I need a miracle. Then who's the first one I call on? God. I'm disgusted with myself for taking advantage of Him.

Anyway, I'm rambling. I did get my miracle today. And it came thru a friend...Jiff. Thanks pal.

The whole reason I'm really writing this blog is so I could talk about what I just read. You see as I was getting ready for bed, I decided I needed to get back in the Word. My life really has suffered since I stopped reading my Bible and praying...just spending time with and learning from God. So, I thought I'd start easy. Baby steps. I pulled the book Ending Your Day Right by Joyce Meyer off of my bookshelf. I opened it to December 3rd and this is what it said:

"Peace I leave with you, my peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14:27

Jesus knew he was about to pass from this world and He wanted to leave us something. He could have left any number of good things, like His power and His name, and He did. But He also left us His peace. Jesus had a special kind of peace that surpassed anything mankind had ever known. He knew it was one of the most precious things He could give. Ask for and receive your inheritance tonight!

Um...........HELLO!
God knew I needed to read those EXACT words tonight. Earlier today I was praying for a miracle. God gave me one. And now he wants to remind me that he has also given me peace. I just need to receive it.

Thanksgiving Week

On Tuesday Logan, Sam and I drove up to Petit Jean Mtn. Leisurely stops at overlooks and meandering down the easier trails...it was a beautiful day. I just wish we had gone a few weeks earlier. Most of the trees had dropped their leaves. Oh well. It was still nice.

Wednesday night, my family went to the Samauri Steakhouse for an unconventional Thanksgiving dinner. Sushi and cocktails all around. We had a blast. But...I'm kinda sad that I didn't have a traditional Thanksgiving dinner. *tears*

Thursday, mom and I had to take one of her dogs to the emergency vet in Maumelle. Turns out the dog was fine. While we were doing that, my dad and brothers were at my grandparents having their traditional Thanksgiving dinner. Later on, we all met up to go see Four Christmases. It's really funny!