Blaaaaarg...

I'm weight loss blogging again, so I thought I'd give a little attention to THIS blog too.  Not much to report.  Doing the work and school thing still.  I can not WAIT for this semester to be over. 

• Changed my major from Education to Liberal Arts.  This will allow me to continue to work full time.  I was worried about having to quit my job to do student teaching.  If I quit my job, not only do I lose my income and insurance, but I also lose my fabulous 70% tuition discount.  My new plan is to just finish my bachelor degree and then go from there to get a teaching license.
• Moved in with my brother last November.  Now Timmy, Logan and I are all living together.  It's pretty funny to be living with both of my siblings, but I love it.  The atmosphere is a million times friendlier than my parent's house and it's way cheaper than living on my own.  Plus, I like having roommates.
• Work sucks most of the time.  I constantly struggle with my feelings toward my coworker.  I have to pray for God to make me sweet.  :)  Seriously.  Here's the difference between my coworker and myself.  She's here for a paycheck and tuition discount ONLY.  I'm here because I love what I do.  I love our patients.  I'm constantly trying to make the process easier and better, etc, etc... It's hard to sit back and watch someone half-ass their job and not even care. 
• I still watch too much tv.  I'm addicted to Greek right now.  I love Netflix Instant!

That about sums up my life.  SO SAD.  Here are a few things I'm looking forward too:

• Seth Meyers.  I'm going to Arkansas Tech on 4/11/11 to see him LIVE!  He is my very favorite SNL cast member.  I think he's smart and hilarious and oh so sexy.  :)
• Memphis in May.  I've already bought tickets for me and Rach and booked a hotel room.  It's a super expensive trip, but it will be totally worth it.  I'm looking forward to seeing The Flaming Lips, The New Pornographer, Mumford & Sons, The Avett Brothers and Wilco...among many others. 
• Camping.  I'm taking a week long camping trip the first week of June.  It's mine and Rach's 3rd annual post spring semester camping trip.  The weather is warm enough to swim and cool enough to enjoy being outside.  The camp sites at Degray are super nice and shaded.  I've been building up my camping supplies for the last couple of months.
• Weekly lake trips.  After all of my vacations, I'll be back to work, but... I plan to drive to Lake DeGray every weekend possible for lots of laying in the sun times. 

Okay...that's all that I can think of for now.  Better get back to work!

I'm back!

Okay. I didn't love tumblr. I love the familiarity of blogger.

Absolutely nothing is going on, so it's not like I'll be blogging a ton. It's been a lazy summer so far. Rach and I go to the lake as much as possible. This week I've been housesitting in Sherwood...a welcome vacation away from my house.

My Landon girlies are coming over for a sleepover-swim party this weekend. I am super excited. I will try to take pics, but no guarantees. I've been terrible about not taking pictures lately.

Anyhoo, I just wanted to say, "I'm back. Woo hoo!" :D

Relocating...for now.

I'm blogging here now: www.mytechnicolordreams.tumblr.com.

Memphis Trip

JM's during "Gravity". The guitar solo blew my mind.

Rach and I went to see John Mayer in Memphis this past weekend. Fun times! I stole that pic above from some random twitterer who was at the same show. We were NOT that close. :) Here's a pic from where WE were sitting.

Almost to the very top of Fedex Forum!

Anyhoo, we got to Memphis at 3:00 on Friday afternoon. We checked into the hotel and just chilled until the concert. Rach was so freaking excited. John Mayer is her absolute favorite. We got to the show early and found our seats...so freaking high up. I was sick to my stomach and couldn't look down until all the seats filled up with people. It was crazy high!

Michael Franti & Spearhead played first. I really like their music. It's everyone-love-everyone music with a fun dance beat. :) Unfortunately, we were so high up that we really couldn't hear him. I think it was the bass noise and his super low register. So, kind of a disappointment.

There was an intermission before John came on. A huge net surrounded the stage...

Me: What do you think that net is for?

Rach: I think it's to protect John from malaria. You know...from the mosquitos?

Me: (sarcastically) Haha. Yeah. I get it. :)

Me: So, do you think John gets nervous before concerts?

Rach: Probably. I bet he's looking at himself in the mirror right now saying, "You're awesome. No, YOU'RE awesome."

Me: I bet he's doing push ups right now to make his pecks look bigger.

And so on and so forth. Finally, music started playing and images were projected on the screen that surrounded the stage. It was pretty cool, actually. Rach said, "OMG. My heart is racing!" Then the screens dropped and there he was! LOL. Rach was in HEAVEN. Thankfully, we didn't have the same problem hearing John as we did with Michael Franti. We did have to strain to hear when he was just talking, but the music was crystal clear.

Here's the set list:

Heartbreak Warfare

No Such Thing

Crossroads

Belief

Perfectly Lonely

Assassin

Stop This Train

The Heart of Life

Ain't No Sunshine - Guitar solo was awesome!

Waiting on the World to Change

Vultures

Half of My Heart > Walking in Memphis

Why Georgia

Gravity - He blew my mind with his guitar solo on this song!

Encore:

Who Says

I'm Gonna Find Another You

Needless to say, after this concert Rach was even more in love with John Mayer! :) We went back to the hotel and watched all of his music videos. Haha!

Saturday morning we took advantage of the hotels contentinal breakfast. Then we packed up, checked out and headed to Beale Street. We walked up and down Beale St several times. We went into all of the souvenir shops and ended up buying t-shirts. In one of the shops there was an acoustic guitar signed by John Mayer. I took a pic of Rach touching it. Hehe. Too bad I didn't have 350 extra dollars in my pocket. Otherwise, I might have bought it for her.

We ended the trip by having lunch at the Hard Rock Cafe.

I have some pics, but they're on Rach's camera. I'll try to get them from her and post them here later.

One little side note, we were kind of exhausted from only 4 hours of sleep the night before. On the drive home (Rach was driving), I decided to do some Mad Libs (our fave!). The first few were pretty funny. On the last one, I told Rach to be extra dirty (it makes 'em funnier! Don't judge!), so...she did. The result was so freaking hilarious that I went blind from laughing so hard and Rach ran off the road from the hilarity! Not so much that we wrecked, but we hit those loud noise thingys on the side of the interstate. Anyhoo, it was so hilarious. I would share it, but you probably wouldn't think it was funny. I asked Rach, "Does anyone other than us this we're that hilarious?" She said, "Probably not." We laugh so hard when we're together!

Download these songs (if you don't already have them):

Say Hey (I Love You) - Michael Franti and Spearhead

Heartbreak Warfare - John Mayer

A day in the City

View of the River Market from the Junction Bridge

Blue skies from the Junction Bridge

Downtown Little Rock from the Junction Bridge

Then on to the Big Dam Bridge

This is just the ramp that leads to the bridge. Goo!

My first thought when I saw the bridge was, "HELLO! I believe I ordered the large cappuccino!"

The east side of the BDB.

View from the East side of the BDB

The flags in the middle of the BDB.

The West (calmer) side of the BDB.

View from the West. Oh look! Another bridge! :)

My sweet baby was waiting for me when I got home.

Snow Days

I hardly ever look at the forecast. I just check my weather channel iPhone app when I wake up on weekday mornings so I'll know how to dress for work. Well, Monday morning I woke up to a major surprise. It had snowed! My first thought was, "SH*T!" I did not want to miss work. When it had iced the week before, I missed a day and my nazi of a boss wouldn't let me use vacation time to make up lost hours. So, when I woke up Monday morning and saw the snow I knew that I would have to drive in it. NOT FUN. I got to work at 7 am with no troubles. Out of pure defiance I didn't do any work. I did on algebra and played on facebook. TAKE THAT ATTENDANCE NAZIS! After a while I looked out the window and noticed that the snow was POURING down (is that the right verb?).

View from my office

HUGE flakes. It was so pretty, but I couldn't appreciate it because I knew it would only make my drive home worse. Boo snow! Then my coworker, Jamie, came in and asked me to go play outside with her. I put aside my anger at the snow and we ran downstairs.

Right outside my building

We measured the snow. 2 inches at that point.

Then we snapped a pic of us being retarded. Fun times!

We ran back inside only to discover that it was lunch time. We put off work further to go stuff our faces. Woot! Then Jamie discovered a loophole in the inclement weather policy and we all rejoiced that we would soon be able to go home...after we ate, of course. We went got back to the office, we heard that UAMS decided to have mercy on us and said we could leave. TTL! I was so happy! Until I got to my car and the stress began. I made it out of the parking deck only to get stuck on a hill...twice! I thought I'd burn my motor up trying to get up that hill. ANGER! Then there was someone blocking my entrance to the interstate. I had to wait for about 10 minutes before that was cleared up. I don't know what my hurry was... I proceeded to sit on the interstate for 2 1/2 hours! I literally rode in 1st gear almost the entire way home! My blood pressure was so high and my bladder was so full. To top it all off, I had forgotten my ipod, so I only had the radio and Blueprint III cd to keep me company. Misery! I finally made it onto Hwy 67/167 and kicked it into high gear (3rd...ugh) and passed those slow bitches that were about to make me pee on myself. I finally made it home w/o killing myself or peeing on myself. SUCCESS!

By home, I mean the home where I was house sitting/dog sitting. When I got there, I had to trek up a steep hill through about 3-4 inches of snow. Remember earlier when I mentioned that I didn't normally look at the forecasts? Well, that means I didn't know snow was coming and I didn't pack proper snow atire. So, I'm trekking up this hill through the snow in my tennis shoes. My the time I made it up the hill, my pants, shoes and socks were SOAKED. Awesome. And THEN I found out that the snow had made tree branches fall in the back yard. One of the branches took out part of the fence. Great. I have four dogs that need to go out. UGH!!! I HATE WINTER! Thankfully, it was the fence separating my backyard from the neighbor's back yard. The neighbor was super nice and said he didn't mind if the dogs wandered over there. He made sure his gates were closed. Whew! Crisis averted. I changed clothes, let the dogs out and then took a minute to pause and appreciate the pretty, white snow. SIKE! It sure would've been nice if I hadn't been afraid of the UAMS attendance nazis, then I might've stayed home and have been able to appreciate the beauty of the snow. But, no. Because I had wasted the whole day at work, I had missed out on the fun stuff. By this time it was pouring rain and was ruining the pretty snow. UGH! I HATE WINTER!!!!!

View from the front porch

View from the back door (the fence to the right was knocked down)

Sam LOVES the snow. He frolicked around the backyard with the other dogs.

Since his face is squished, when he'd put his face down to lick or sniff, he'd come up with a face full of snow. CUTE!

So, that's my overly dramatic telling of my snow day. Hope you enjoyed. I actually missed work today. My boss took pity on us and allowed us to use a vacation day today. I have no idea what changed her mind, but believe me...I know it pained her to say that. You could tell by the look on her face. Anyhoo...I woke up early and called all my patients to cancel clinic (they weren't coming anyway) and then went back to bed. Yippee! I slept til noon and then cleaned up the house. I packed up our stuff and then we were on the road by 2:00. HOME SWEET HOME!

On a different note...On Friday night, Rach and I saw Dear John. We mainly went because Rach LOVES Channing Tatum. My advice to you: wait for DVD. It's not a bad movie. It's just not a movie you should rush to the theater to see.

Okay. That's all folks.

Here we go again...

I haven't blogged in almost a year! I have a boring life, so I don't know why I'm even considering keeping this blog at all. BUT...I'm gonna. :) So, how about an update? Well...even that seems redundant because there are only two people who read this blog. Ima do it anyway...

1. I just turned 33. Ugh. I don't love being this old. When I was a teenager, I set these (probably ridiculous) goals for myself. I was going to graduate college by 21, be married and have my first child by 25. If I measure my life by whether or not I achieved those goals...I'm a big fat failure! At the age of 21, I was just STARTING college. At the age of 25, I had dropped out of college (too much partying) and was back home living with my parents. Awesome. Life fail!

2. I moved back in with my parents (their idea). Double ugh! How lame am I? But, I'm saving on rent and utilities and they're footing my tuition bill. My mom just called me up and said, "Hey! Why dontcha move in with us and go back to school?" Um, okay. :) It's actually been pretty fantastic so far. I'm getting spoiled from all the home cooked meals.

3.Speaking of school...I started back to school this semester. I'm taking 13 hours: US History since 1877 (required for my major), Speech (I've put it off forever b/c I hate speaking in front of people!), Intro to Visual Art, Dieting & Weight Mgmt (1 hour online course. I'm taking it because I needed one more hour.) and Intermediate Algebra. The algebra is for sure going to kick my arse. I haven't done math (or any school work) since 2002. I will literally have to work on it for hours every day. Boo math! Anyhoo...my plan is to get a degree in Middle Level Education. I'll be licensed to teach English and History to 4th-8th graders. I'd prefer to teach the 8th graders, but obviously I'll take what I can get. :)

I actually think that's it. How sad is my life update?! How about a social update or something?

My kids (who aren't really MY kids, but just kids that I claim): Rach is 19 and in her second semester at Tech. She made straight A's her first semester. That's cause she's a BAMF! :) When she's home, she's my constant companion. We're BFFF and bastically the same person.

Rach is so awesome that she should have a whole planet named after her...not just a trail!

Kellie is 15 now and in the 10th grade. She's in the band...plays the flute and is on the flag line. She's really smart too. She's very social and is always going out. She had her first boyfriend and first break up this past semester. Awwww. :) She is definitely the typical 15 y/o girl!

Kellie's facebook page is full of pics like this. She's very creative.

Shae is 10 and is super craz-zay! For my birthday, she and her dad, Chris, made a song for me. I wish that I had a video of it b/c it was AMAZING! Basically, Shae made posters with the words: Happy, Birthday, Bob (what Shae calls me). Chris used Shae's keyboard to play a funky beat and then pecked out a tune similar to Jimmy Fallon's "I Wish It Was Christmas Today". Shae danced and held up the cards instead of singing. It was hiiiiilarious.

It's hard to get a good pic of Shae. She's always acting super silly. Kind of like her older sisters...

My dog: Samuel L. Jackson is still one bad mo fo. Hehe. Seriously...best dog ever! I couldn't imagine my life w/o him.


Speaking of dogs...these are my parent's dogs that have adopted me.

Baxley and Barlow

On a sadder note, recently on of my best friends passed away. Caleb was an art teacher. He was fantastic. One of the most talented people that I know. He could sing and play guitar in addition rocking at art stuff. :) I have a hard time accepting that he's not here anymore. Sometimes it hits me and it's so painful. Other times it's like he's in his apartment in Little Rock and I could just call him right up. If I called him up right now, he'd say (in country voice), "Courtney, lets just get together and marfelate on each other." He had a song about his word, marfles. "I don't want to be jaded. I just want to be marfelated." I know you can't hear the tune like I can in my head...

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I actually wrote all that a couple weeks ago. School has kept me sooo busy that I haven't been able to get back to this...

We had some wintry weather this weekend. I didn't go to work on Friday and my class was canceled today. Woot! I've been super lazy today. I got up at 845 am because mom cooked breakfast and then I was back in bed by 10. I slept until 2! It. Was. Awesome.

Today is my mom's bday. I completely forgot. It's 4:33...the day's almost over and I still haven't wished her a happy birthday. Mom woke me up at 2 and said she and dad were going to a movie...and that's when it dawned on me. I've been kicking myself ever since...waiting for her to get home so I can pounce on her. Even worse...this morning while I was eating breakfast I watched last night's Jimmy Kimmel Live. He did a hilarious bit about Oprah's birthday (which was yesterday). Mom LOVES Oprah, so I made her come watch it with me. I MADE HER WATCH A FUNNY ABOUT OPRAH'S BDAY...all the while forgetting that it was HER birthday. I SUCK!

Happy Birthday Mom!

Anyhoo...this is my first post back. Hopefully I'll remember to post regularly. But...don't get your hopes up. :)

Can't get it out of my head!

I can NOT stop singing songs from this album. I listen to it on the way to work, all day at work, on the way home from work, when I'm at home cleaning and right before I go to bed I watch one or two or ALL of their videos on my iPod.

Fa-REEK-ing HILARIOUS.


Buy it.

P.S. Just in case you don't know who The Lonely Island is (are?)... You DO know Andy Samberg, right? SNL? If you've seen SNL digital shorts, you've probably heard a few of these songs.

"A boom box can change the world. You've got to know your limits with a boom box. This was a cautionary tale. A BOOM BOX IS NOT A TOY!"

I feel this way...

I have so many dreams, but I am too lazy (or whatever you want to call it) to do the work to make those dreams come true. I wish I could change that.

Speaking of (a different kind of) dreams... I had that recurring dream again. This time I was changing lanes on a bridge. I was switching from the middle lane to the slow lane and my car just kept going. I drove right off of the bridge. I was somehow able to turn all the way around in my seat and watch myself fall...instead of seeing the water rushing at me, I saw the bridge get further and further away (in slow mo). Sam was with me and I pulled him tight into my arms. Then my car hit the water...only there was really no impact. Water rushed into the car. In the next part of the dream, I'm waking up at someone's house. I ask where my dog is and I'm told that Sam didn't make it. Not because of the crash, but because he had cancer. Injuries from the crash revealed the cancer. I was so devastated that I ran out of the house and burst into tears. I rammed my fists into my eyes to try to stop the flow of tears. After I cried myself out, I went to a bedroom and laid down. A man came in to check on me. I said, "I can still feel him laying behind me." (I usually lay on my side and Sam curles up behind my knees.) And then I woke up.

Holidays Schmolidays.

Thanksgiving was meh. Christmas was meh. New Years was fun. Yay! Birthday so far is meh.

Meh!

Haha! Sorry to be a downer, but that's just how I'm feeling these days.

Thanksgiving: Did I already blog about Thanksgiving? I think I did. So, just a refresher...Mom doesn't like to cook, so we went out to eat sushi on Thanksgiving eve and then on Thanksgiving day mom & I slept late while the boys and Dad went to Dad's parent's house. Later, we went to a movie. Four Christmases. Very funny! Overall, very disappointing Thanksgiving for me.

Christmas: Christmas eve I went to my parents house for munching and games. Logan got off work at 11:00 p.m., so we opened gifts a little after midnight. Then we all went our separate ways to sleep. On Christmas Day we reconviened and went to see The Day The Earth Stood Still. IT SUCKED BIG TIME! Overall, MEH.

New Years Eve: I was dog sitting last week, so I was in a fabulous house on NYE. I invited Rachael and Stephanie to come hang with me. My friend, Brian, also pooped in for a while. Rachael and I cooked chili and brownies and later when Steph and Brian showed up we played Scene It. After Brian left, we had a major "girl talk" session. FUN!

Birthday: Well, the fact that I'm now 32...that calls for a very loud "MEH"! But, I'm telling myself that I'm only 29, so...whatever. Birthday's now are really no biggie. My pal, Angie, decorated my desk and made me cupcakes and gave me cash. My other pal, Jenn, took me to lunch and to Starbucks. Woot! So, I'm very well fed and the extra cash allowed me to pay off my antique furniture! Yippee!! I am very excite! Tonight I'm stopping by my parent's house for some veggie soup and later my Rach is coming over to give me a prezzie. I have a sneaking suspicion that it is Forgetting Sarah Marshall. I freaking LOVE that movie! Overall, it's been a fabulous b-day. I'm only saying "meh" over the age part.

Merry Christmas from Sam! hehe

Nuther good one...

I promise I'm not going to turn this blog into a nightly "talk about my devotion" time. It's just right now I feel like I'm waking up from a deep sleep. I'm excited that God is talking to me again...or rather...I'm excited that I'm able to HEAR Him again. Anyhoo...just wanted to share this:

"You will show me the path of life; in Your presence is fullness of joy." Psalm 16:11

Your joy is not based on your circumstances. Happiness may be based on what is happening to you, but not joy. Joy - a fruit of the Spirit - is like a deep well on the inside of you. It is not the fruit of your circumstance. No matter what you are facing in life, you can have joy in the midst of it. - From JM's Ending Your Day Right

It's not like these are new words to me. I've been a Christian for a long time. I've heard these things over and over. But, what awes me is that God knows just when you need to really hear these things. If I'd read that passage, say, last month...it wouldn't mean as much as it does to me today. Today...I'm excited to remember that I can have joy even though I'm going through some real crap right now. Yay!

One more thing...

"Oh I get by with a little help from my friends. Mmmm I get high with a little help from my friends. Oh I'm gonna try with a little help from my friends." - The Beatles

hehe.

God's Peace. Like Calgon...only eleventy billion times better.

Things have been stressful lately. Work is so stressful that I'm working 10 hour days and having crying fits. My personal life...even worse. I've been freaking over some things this week. So bad that I've had to pull out the trusty old xanax just so I could calm down enough to sleep. This morning, I was so panicked that I could barely function. So, I prayed. "Please God. I need a miracle..."

On the way to work I thought, "Why do I keep doing this to myself?!" And by "this" I mean, separating myself from God. ABB, like you, I've been struggling with this. For three long years I've been moving further and further away. And for three long years, I've seen my life stagnate. I know what I need to do to make things right, but I'm lazy and I'm the queen of avoidance. Avoiding the physical (for lack of a better word) issues and the spiritual issues. Well, I avoid until I need a miracle. Then who's the first one I call on? God. I'm disgusted with myself for taking advantage of Him.

Anyway, I'm rambling. I did get my miracle today. And it came thru a friend...Jiff. Thanks pal.

The whole reason I'm really writing this blog is so I could talk about what I just read. You see as I was getting ready for bed, I decided I needed to get back in the Word. My life really has suffered since I stopped reading my Bible and praying...just spending time with and learning from God. So, I thought I'd start easy. Baby steps. I pulled the book Ending Your Day Right by Joyce Meyer off of my bookshelf. I opened it to December 3rd and this is what it said:

"Peace I leave with you, my peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14:27

Jesus knew he was about to pass from this world and He wanted to leave us something. He could have left any number of good things, like His power and His name, and He did. But He also left us His peace. Jesus had a special kind of peace that surpassed anything mankind had ever known. He knew it was one of the most precious things He could give. Ask for and receive your inheritance tonight!

Um...........HELLO!
God knew I needed to read those EXACT words tonight. Earlier today I was praying for a miracle. God gave me one. And now he wants to remind me that he has also given me peace. I just need to receive it.

Thanksgiving Week

On Tuesday Logan, Sam and I drove up to Petit Jean Mtn. Leisurely stops at overlooks and meandering down the easier trails...it was a beautiful day. I just wish we had gone a few weeks earlier. Most of the trees had dropped their leaves. Oh well. It was still nice.

Wednesday night, my family went to the Samauri Steakhouse for an unconventional Thanksgiving dinner. Sushi and cocktails all around. We had a blast. But...I'm kinda sad that I didn't have a traditional Thanksgiving dinner. *tears*

Thursday, mom and I had to take one of her dogs to the emergency vet in Maumelle. Turns out the dog was fine. While we were doing that, my dad and brothers were at my grandparents having their traditional Thanksgiving dinner. Later on, we all met up to go see Four Christmases. It's really funny!

Twilighters...

If you haven't read the Twilight books you're missing out. Good stuffs! Go read them before you see the movie.

Last night I went with a group of my pals to the midnight showing of the movie. We had a blast. The movie is magical and beautiful. Siiiiiiigh. <-- Hehe. That was my inner teenage girl talking. Seriously though...FUN TIMES!

The Twins. *rolling eyes*

They talk and move so fast! This was the only pic I got of them...and I think it sums them up beautifully! =)

The Twins and their momma!

KK & I

Me n My Momma!

Recurring Dream...

I have two recurring anxiety dreams. The school anxiety dream...I still have them even though I haven't been in school for years. You know the one... Usually people dream that they've shown up at school without pants or a top, or completely naked. My school dream is: I show up at school...I'm running late and I can't remember my locker combo to get my books. Or I'm in class and I can't remember any of the material and we're having a test over it in a few minutes. Sigh. I really think that I am the queen of anxiety dreams. This week I've had TWO. Not the school dream though. This is a different one. The falling from great heights dream.

Monday night I dreamed that I was driving by myself along a highway. I had to cross over a ridiculously tall bridge. Somehow I lost control of the car and went over the side. In my dream I'm saying to my self, "OMG. Is this real or a dream? I think this is real. This feels real!" and then I start praying. In this dream, it takes me a long time to fall into the water. I'm praying, "Lord, please welcome me to heaven." and then I hit the water. And I wake up. I thought this dream was interesting because usually when I'm praying to God, I'm praying for him to keep me safe...to keep me alive. In this one, I just want to go Home.

Last night I had the dream again! The gist is the same, only this time I'm in the back seat of a van. There are four of us. We're on an overpass and we're curving down and around to get to another interstate (if that makes any sense). Again, it is ridicuously high. And again, the driver loses control of the van and we go over. As we're falling, I'm praying, "God please keep us safe. Help us to land safely. Please keep us in the palm of your hand." And guess what. He did. This is where the dream differs from all of my other dreams. Usually I hit water, ground, whatever and wake up. This time we actually landed safely. After we hit the ground, my friends spilled out of the van exclaiming, "OMG. How did we survive?!" And I said, "I'll tell you how. I prayed." I looked up at the bridge...way to high up for someone to survive a fall...and thought to myself, "I need to take a picture so I can post it on my blog!" And then I woke up. =)

So, I'm sure that these dreams are a result of my current financial stress. I have this CC that I need to pay down. I have Christmas gifts to buy, the usual bills to pay and now I've agreed to buy this really great furniture. It is my dream furniture though. So, I'm going to justify it. I KNOW I SHOULD SPEND THE MONEY ON BILLS. But I've never had a matching bedroom set before. And this one is so pretty and VINTAGE. Sigh. Anyway, that HAS to be the reason I'm having the falling dream, right? Cause I googled "falling from great heights dream" and got a page that said I might be having an "astral projection"! hahahaha!

This page sums it up for me:

As with most common dream themes, falling is an indication of insecurities, instabilities, and anxieties. You are feeling overwhelmed and out of control in some situation in your waking life. This may reflect the way you feel in your relationship or in your work environment. You have lost your foothold and can not hang on or keep up with the hustle and bustle of daily life. When you fall, there is nothing that you can hold on to. You more or less are forced toward this downward motion without any control. This lost of control may parallel a waking situation in your life. Falling dreams also often reflect a sense of failure or inferiority in some circumstance or situation. It may be the fear of failing in your job/school, loss of status, or failure in love. You feel shameful and lack a sense of pride. You are unable to keep up with the status quo or that you don't measure up.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABB!

I love you so much! I hope you have the most fabulous birthday ever!

ABB and CBB at 16.

ABB and CBB (holding CBB #2) at...25?

I love Fall!

It is my most favoritest time of the year! Here are some fall-y things that I heart...

Flossiemeister!

BayBooBear!